-Saturday, April 04, 2009 '
my heart rate goes up, and i feel the rush of adrenaline. the exhaustion that i felt suddenly disappears, and i feel awake. awake enough to be reminded of unpleasant stuffs. it feels like things are getting worse, and work isn't much of a solution. its this kind of feeling, that assures me that i'm right about the upsetting facts. guess i was bluffing myself all along, and bluffing others, too. i cant help but admit that theres double protection right now. that was so subtle, and yet so powerful. or maybe the more insignificant it seemed to be, the more strength it holds.
work today was horrendous, disastrous, not so pleasant, to me. i dont like to do opening. its like a morning workout for me. sweeping, mopping, wiping, washing. its no wonder that the skin on my fingertips are starting to crack. but i learned a couple of new things again today. i baked cookies at work eh! :D they're awfully yummy. (i got to try them too. hahha.) but i didn make the dough. :(
and then, back to fuhua for alumni band prac. i sucked, a lot, again. tsk. thats what i get for not touching my dear flute for around half a year. plus i was kinda sleepy. =x hehehe. and then, dinner with some of the people. ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I ATE AT CU. HAHA.
I'M FINALLY HALFWAY THROUGH. LOL.
i'm worn out already. and i'm thinking about shirley at this moment. hahaha.
12:51 AM;
&I'll let it all end here.
&I'll let it all end here.